The ride?

I tell everyone,it's easy la...nothing is easier than cycling.
Now i finally understood why people say it's hard.
why do my friends feel upset when they get left behind or not being able to keep up feels depressing to some.
I felt the same.
and yes,being unfit sucks!
hey but you have to work for what u want.
All I want is my fitness back.
just to be in shape..about the competition?
haven't thought that far yet.
I am already comfortable now I guess that's why I am not thinking.
but not being able to keep up on a 70km ride?that sucks!

At a bicycle shop in Malaysia

Have you been to a place that someone shoots you in the face
even that u don't know them?
Well...if u want to try this....try visiting a bike shop in sea park area...
and you will then get your experience.
earlier today I brought a friend that was very keen on a new bicycle.
I told her that this bike shop offers a good range of bicycles.
Maria was very keen on the bicycles and this really good sales person entertained us.
later the owner said straight in my friends face ...
you are very short.
U're a very short girl ahh!
U didn't eat or what?
Ouch didn't that just insult my friend?
I was just stunned and so was she...
as we left he asked me some personal question on why did i change my appearance?
I said well it's done now....nothing can be turned back..
he continued again but it looks unnatural and ugly!
I mean which human that does sales has this kind of mouth?
No wonder 10years ago so many people avoided his shop?
But as a teenager I still went not wanting to realize the fact!
who cares now?
I am no longer cycling!!
Plus the truth came out...
To me it's just another day but if he said it to the wrong person...
aha..who knows what lands on his skin next?
to find out?wait for the future?!?!

Not easy being me

I wish that life was simple.
At least I try to make it simple.
But there are way too many obligations to follow to please.
I am just a nut a big one.
i should keep it all inside me.
I want to let go but I dont know how.
The only time we meet is on the weekends but I have other things that has to be done.
I got to take care of my grandfather.
He is suffering Alzheimer a disease that is really hard to understand.
He forgets and keeps repeating the same forever,same old questions and sometime even scolds you for no reason or accuse u of something in his mind happens but not.
It's stressful I can understand from my mum's side how she is feeling but also from my grandfathers side what he is feeling being followed all day by someone.
It's just a big stress and something no one understands.
I have very limited time to spend, I try to be a good person.
But i think I fail, i try to make most people happy but i guess I am not pleasing enough?
what should i do?
I am not good in anything at all.I am useless, just useless and no use to anyone accept when help is needed.
I am ignored, I need to talk to someone but I have no one.
Always occupied,hate the military,taking him away from me.
There is no time,for anything!!! NO LIFE.
Makes me more stress,i thought get a weekday job so i have the weekend, end up...taking care of my grandpa?????
how?
Until when do I have to go through this?
should i move on?
Get a house and live alone?
I don't even have a bed for heavens sake!
it's just pathetic to be in a place where I call home like that.
I need to scream my lungs out

i thought i got a job but??

I wonder if i got a job?
I am not sure myself.
however...I heard this over the websites..
i googled the company....i wonder what is true?
http://misisitukangtulis.blogspot.com/2010/02/jadi-mangsa.html

forum.lowyat.net/topic/175775

I wonder what is this about?
Did I get con and turn the other offer down?
it's quite sad eii?
hmm...
I need a job really :(

Is history attacking again?

I was talking to my friend Jeanie and this is what she says watching the news over in Berlin ,Germany.
there is a scale. tschernobyl was the biggest nuclear catastrophy in the world with a scale of 7. there are 7 scales u can measure it. japans catastrophy is getting on the scale of5-6 till now. when its getting on scale 7, its the most worse scenario u can have in nuclear catastrophy.
old atomic energy is stored in container, the people and politics dont actually know where to put it. its stored for years in this container at some places
no i wont, its too late for this japanise nuclear power plant
they just can try to fix it somehow with cooling dowm the thing... and trying that i wont explode again
but the poison is already getting out
its not TOO LATE to try to safe it, but its too late to just shut it down. they vant cause the nuclear needs to be cooled down. its a kind circle... like heating, creating energy and cooling down.. the problem is, that the power plant got hit and the cooling down with water is not working anymore.

just humans have to live with the follow-up. earthquakes, climate change, vulanos, tsunami,.......................
live and survive
and change
start to respect nature more

Someone added me

I had a friend request over...facebook.
I had this person on list before I think?
however...decided to take a look at his blog and it is funny.
for friends who can speak Malay .
DO visit this website to have a great laugh.
http://gejetto.blogspot.com/

hope u have fun reading!!!

tried a new thing

it was being an extra actress and it was damn tiring!!! geez....
waiting and waiting alot.
oh well..it was a new exposure for me.
Had this thick make up all night.
definitely not me but every does i guess.
sweat and mosquitoes at the venue.
but hey...life is not easy yea?
more things to learn in future to come.
I met a lot of type of people.
some that boast,some that think they can act but can't?
i personally don't know how was my acting but
wasn't hard to be screaming and being scared of frogs!!!
which i am obviously.