What lies beneath

A life one goes through is unpredictable, there's no such things as a perfect person...
As nice a person can be there ought to be someone that person annoys.
People change for the better, I do not believe in an overnight change nor believe in changing due to what people say, unless of course it's relevant.
This past months wasn't easy for me especially,so much in my head.
Husband being far away, it's sad.
Thank god I have my family and to be living in a comfortable home.
However I don't think I live a normal life, grandparents lives with us.
It was full on attention once again since the maid left..
 If I ignore then my own mother would have to take the burden full on..
But sometimes I just come to a stage,don't care,go to bed.
Why is it seem so hard? Grandpa with dementia, hopefully grandmother will be better n play along.
I know I will work hard to have my own place to live one day,
How I wish husband has more time for me..
I feel lonely at times and don't know who to talk to.
Parents are there but it's so different.
I hope to give my child the best...
And some peace hopefully,
Allah please be with me and guide me in everything I do.
I want to do it well for my husband,child and family.

busybody, spy and just can't let it go

Life is about learning and moving on, when it's over.
It's not like you have to fret and tell the world about it...
Let it go and move on.
I live my life the way I want,who are you to say that it's all tied up?
Islam is a nice religion so are others but I choose to be a muslim,
why do people have to have a problem with that?
What do you mean no freedom?
life is about choices and how you want it to be,
so being  a christian,buddhist,taoism or what so ever has the freedom? to do what????????
Drinking alcohol? eating pork?
The contain of pork's bacteria never dies even when it's cooked in water at a 100 degrees so is that good?
Alcohol, really good? It is just doing bad to our bodies and killing your liver.
There's a reason why Islam forbid all these.
I don't see a bad to it.
And to pray 5times? it's to remind you that god exist ,to do good and a moment a few days a day to clear your head and it helps you stretch as well.
I am happy with my life, if u're not with yours don't say that mine is not...find your life and way to live.
Stop speaking of others when you yourself don't know what you're doing and always uncertain of things.
Make up your mind and live happily coz we live only once in a lifetime.

Feeling more challenged

I feel more challenged as time passes by with the amount of things needed to be done,really it is not easy.
I think of more than a person now,
it's to fit the situation of my lil one soon.
I hope all goes well and whatever decision I make is not too difficult for the future.
I have a pair of hands like others, it's about what I want and how I can do it.
What's going to be good?
What type of achievements am I aiming for?
It's hard to judge from not starting anything,
the next thing I want to do is start sewing small things
because it makes me happy :)

Fortunate

I went for lunch, as usual mostly by myself.
However today I decided to eat around the office area, I sat with two women.
They were a mother and daughter.
The shop was full and i thought why not just bump into this table.
I started talking as usual, the talkative me!
I found them both friendly, I spoke mostly to the mother.
She was very friendly as well and gave me advices for the little one.
After eating we all were leaving the table and she offered to pay for my meal.
It was a shock that I hardly knew her and she was going to pay for my meal.
I refused but she insisted , I was thankful.
There are still kind people on these earth I guess.

If just we can explain why...

Stated all over articles that cancer of the liver is among one of the most serious ones.
When a person is diagnosed it's normally at a late stage of the cancer because
cancer of the liver is one kind of cancer that has no symptoms until it has become serious.
I have heard of bedah makrifat that is done on patients with the islamic holy Quran.
I am not sure how real or true this is but many people i read over the internet seen it and some experienced. My dad on the other hand had his friend who went for the treatment at Shah Alam
with a man that is not a doctor but treated his friend.
Dad's friend had a bad back pain was operated and after the seal it was just a line.
What a miracle. I don't know what is done is halal /haram. However it's said that bedah batin is not the right way whereas bedah makrifat is the islam way, but I am uncertain.
I know that things we don't expect happens.
I read too that if there is no cure, god wouldn't have created something without a cure.
It's sometimes to let us feel alert and challenge ourselves.
Another thing could be to make people bond with one another.
I'll just keep praying, talking in a state of my own mind is a prayer to me.
Ofcourse in my actual praying sessions I will too.
Whoever who reads this people do pray along with me for the good health of my uncle.

Living in Malacca a tourist town

Being a Malaysian and a student in the tourism field,
it seemed familiar the name Malacca,
but actually getting around takes sometime to get use to, I have yet to have found any
Chinese halal cuisine, which makes me misses Muhibbah Seafood , Sungai Penchala, Kuala Lumpur a lot.
There are a few good halal eateries in Malacca I found during lunch hour.
The ones I personally like are nasi berlauk which means white rice with many choices.
The shop named Selera Kampung in Plaza Mahkota it is on the first right as you go into the area just before Mahkota parade facing Dataran on your left.
The other place my colleague introduced to me was Tiga Lima which stands for 35 aparently they use to be a stall and now they have a shoplot and named it after the stall lot number. This to me was so-so, there weren't that many dishes.
Ole Rasa in Melaka raya has 30 over dishes and Ikan bakar, barbeque fish the malay style. These 3eateries are not very pricey however I wouldn't rate them as cheap either.
Maybe because it's in Malacca and quite accesible by the tourist.
Thinking about lunch again....where to eat next?
I do feel like a working tourist in this Malacca town.
About dinner, I eat simple so i'm not exactly sure where's good.
Oh speaking of dinner there's a place that sells Nasi Padang in Melaka raya, I forgot the name of the shop but it's on the same street as Maybank in Melakaraya, that is quite pricey but the food is also tasty. They are open both dinner as well as lunch.

Final internship

The time has came that I finished studying, however I still worry of the results. The next plan would be to get a job in August/September . I am not very sure which field I want to persue in, i guess whatever comes well... SO many ideas in my head but I need to get it going and the only way is to wait for time. As I am writing this blog, suddenly dejavu... I remembered my dream a couple of years back, working in this building with the same environment and same exit at the entrance of this building and I met someone a guy. Don't recall who but it was during ramadhan...damn that i don't recall. I got a strong feeling that it was yayang... weird huh, a couple of years ago..